Thursday, March 11, 2004

work shmerk

Can I just say that I hate work right now? I don’t mean to be a gripe – I’m really a happy, well-adjusted person – but I just can’t take this anymore.

One of my bosses is a micromanaging, condescending meanine. I have been told in the past that I can’t use sticky notes (too unprofessional; yet, we have no voicemail system for the office – I’ll let you be the judge of that one), that I have to write phone messages in the little carbon message book and then put them in an exact spot on his desk, and various other micromanagy things.

Well, this is the last straw. He just told me I have to use the stupid, confusing, illogically designed database program for all of my tasks and calendar functions. I have been using Outlook, which I love, and he said I couldn’t use it anymore. I came thisclose to losing it. I did make a comment about how I hate the database program, and he gave me some crap about how no one really likes it but we all have to use it anyway. ARGH! As one friend put it, I should be able to make my own systems of working so that I will be more successful and efficient at my job. Well said.
I am starting to look for a new job – today.

There were so many other things I was going to write about today, but this superseded them. Maybe I’ll write more later about more interesting and less gripey things.

Wednesday, March 10, 2004

introduction...or re-introduction, if you will

Well. I started this blog years ago and never kept up with it. In fact, I sort of forgot about it. Now, I am done with school and married and I actually have *time* on my hands! (Gasp! Imagine that!) And, I really want to get back into the swing of writing, so I thought blogging might be a good way to start.

I feel like an introduction is in order, so here's a bit about me. My name is Kathleen. I am 22 years old, and I live in Portland, Maine with my husband Brett. We are originally from Portland, Oregon but lived in Seattle for 4 years during college. I work as an office manager in a small software company, so I tend to have a bit of time on my hands. Hence, the blogging.

I?ll probably talk a lot about all of the changes that have happened in my life in the past year, since that's what is on my mind right now: getting married in July, moving to Maine in November, changing jobs several times, etc.

So I will get right down to it.

I am pretty freaking grumpy today. Well, to be honest, I've been really grumpy for a few weeks and I can't seem to get un-grumpy, which I hate. Feeling out of control, especially of myself, is not something I like.

I guess I'm coming to realize that life, and especially marriage, is NOT easy. Maybe I assumed that since we dated for over 4 years before we got married, that things would be easy. Everyone says that the first year of marriage is the hardest, and for the first six months I laughed that off.

"Hard?" I would scoff. "No way! I love being married. It's wonderful! It's amazing! blah, blah, blah."

Now it's like the crap has hit the fan and I am transformed into a grumpy, nagging, mean, yelling wife. Ugh. I don't want to be like this but every time I resolve to be different I fall right back into it.

Choosing your battles is a lot harder than it seems. I think that's a lot of what I'm learning; that I really do have to choose my battles, because if I pick on every little thing, he won't listen at all when the big things come along and I really need him to listen. Heh. That's my psychological epiphany for the day.