Monday, October 29, 2007

shower recap and photos

Although I am completely exhausted, (third trimester pregnancy and traveling don't mix!) I can say that the weekend was fantastic, and so was my shower.

I think the easiest way to do this is through posting photos with captions, so I'm going to give it a shot after a brief introduction.

Once I got on my way on Friday (after having a stress-induced, crying pregnant lady meltdown not only in front of my co-workers, but also at the sandwich shop on the way to the train -- not fun), my weekend was great!

I got to spend some time with most of the parents -- my mom, my dad and stepmom, and Brett's mom -- which was nice. It was good just to hang out with all of them!

Ok, now to the pictures...

Before the shower on Saturday, we went and did some errands and then stopped by my mom's friend Julie's house, since Julie couldn't come to the shower and she wanted to give me a gift.

She had made a beautiful quilt for the baby! It has lots of different textures on it for the baby to feel -- chenille, cotton, flannel, rick-rack, satin. It is amazing; I love it!

After chatting with Julie for a while, my mom and I headed to the shower.

The hosts of the shower (and me) (and my neice, Adeline): (l-r) my sister Melissa, Brett's sisters Amy and Rachel, and me. They did a fantastic job! (I always feel short next to my SILs...we have a joke that when we hug, I just get a face full of their bosoms.)

My sister Melissa, my neice Adeline, my mom, and me. Yes, I know, we all look alike!

A pretty good shot of my belly. This is me with my friend Lisa, whom I have known since I was in high school and she was a young married lady helping to lead high school youth group and choir at church.

The blanket my stepmom Sandy made. She makes fleece blankets for all of the grandkids. This one has cute turtles on it! She also got me the little stuffed turtle that you can see in my right hand. It's really cute!

Brett's sisters, Rachel and Amy, and Amy's husband Seth, all went in on a bunch of bath supplies -- the tub, towels, washcloths, shampoo, etc -- including these adorable hand puppet washcloths. They are super cute!

Amy also made the baby this pair of knitted, felted booties. They turned out so cute!

And this one is just funny. Please, please excuse my ridiculous expression. But the fact that it's a Busy Bee? CRACKED. ME. UP. Like that scene in Best in Show, you know? It's from my stepmom and she said that she saw it and had to get it because she thought of the same thing.

And now a bit about the cake. It was, in a word, incredible! Brett's mom and her sister, Aunt Lauren, made it together. Aunt Lauren makes cakes for a living (and teaches others how to make cakes) so they really went all out.

And, I have to say, it was as delicious as it was beautiful -- carrot cake with cream cheese frosting. YUM, YUM, YUM.

Ok, it says "Welcome Snugglefriend" because Brett and I are huge dorks who call the baby The Snugglefriend. Yeah, I know, we are weird! But our families have picked up on it and they say it sometimes, too!

It had this little cradle on the top, which they made out of gum paste. The best part is? The cradle part will keep for a really long time! It's at my in-laws now so Brett can see it in person and so we can bring it back at Thanksgiving.

I love the little teddy bear! He is waving.

The baby is all cozy with his/her blankets (the fringe! I love the fringe!) and pillows.

They even made the little feet wrinkly!!!

Overall, the shower was wonderful. Everyone was very generous and we got a lot of really nice gifts. I was able to bring almost everything back here in my suitcase. There are only a few smaller things, plus the bathtub, stroller, and carseat, which we will need to bring back at Thanksgiving. (Thankfully the co-sleeper my mom got us is being shipped straight to us -- one less thing to worry about!)

If the baby came tomorrow (God forbid; I hope He/She waits until much closer to the due date!), there is very little we'd need to go buy other than diapers, since we are doing cloth and haven't gotten them yet.

It feels nice to be a little more prepared -- that's for sure! And what a fun way to get prepared, being able to see so many people who I haven't seen in a very long time. I'll say it again -- it was a very fun shower!

Sunday, October 28, 2007


It was a crazy weekend, but a really good one! My baby shower was tons of fun, I got to see a bunch of people I haven't seen in a long time, and I got to hang out with my mom a bunch.

I got home a couple of hours ago and I'm really tired. So I'm going to go get in bed with my new Snoogle (!!!!), which my mom gave me as a gift at the shower. It is so comfy; I wish I had had one weeks ago!

I'll post photos and a full recap sometime this week. Work is going to be busy but I will find the time somehow!

Thursday, October 25, 2007

husbands: how not to react to your pregnant wife

At the top of the list of things not to say to your pregnant wife as she is putting on her pajamas:

"Heh. You look really funny right now," followed by uncontrolled laughter.

Next on the list of reactions not to have when your pregnant wife looks hurt and asks you why:

"Well your belly is huge and your pants are all pulled up over it [laughter] and you just look hilarious and adorable," followed by uncontrolled laughter.

And finally, on the list of reactions not to have when your pregnant wife loses her ever-diminishing patience and grabs her shirt, hikes it over her belly (revealing the entire giant lump in the process), and says heatedly, "Well, it's either up HERE [pulls pants further up over belly] or down HERE [pulls pants down under belly]. I don't exactly have a MIDDLE right now!":

Uncontrolled laughter.

Monday, October 22, 2007

general updates, a belly picture, and a marriage-related meme

Sorry for the lack of updates lately. Work is insanely busy and at night I am so tired I barely have energy to eat and get in bed, let alone blog or return emails or anything. So, as a result, my posting is limited, much to my dismay.

Overall, though, life is good, albiet tiring. I am afraid to say this because I don't want to jinx anything, but I am feeling better and better these days. How strange that as most women feel worse I am feeling better! Don't get me wrong; I still have the normal later-in-pregnancy aches and pains, but that's really about it these days.

One question, though, to the other pregnant ladies or moms out there: any tips on how to deal with breathlessness? This kid is up in my ribcage to an insanely frustrating degree. I realize I am short torsoed and all so there really isn't anywhere else for He/She to go, but OMG, so uncomfortable!!! The breathlessness makes my heart race and makes me feel all lightheaded. It is very un-fun. I do try moving positions and also getting on my hands and knees, which helps some, but not enough. Plus it's not super practical for when I'm in the middle of work or church or something. :p So, any tips?

And now, some random facts, pregnancy-related and otherwise:

  • My belly button is almost entirely flat and is starting to pop out, which is really strange.
  • I am saddend to report that I have one stretch mark, despite religiously applying lotion every day. (NOOOO!)
  • As of my next appointment on 11/6, I will start going to OB appointments every two weeks. This pregnancy is flying!
  • We start our childbirth classes on Thursday. I am looking forward to it.
  • Brett came to water exercise class with me yesterday. It was pretty funny, us with all the old ladies. :p
  • We went to CafĂ© Presse yesterday for dinner. It was fantastic! I highly recommend it.
  • I am going to Portland this weekend for my baby shower! I am excited; it's mostly family and close friends on the guest list. It will be really good to see everyone, including a lot of people I haven't seen in years (or at least since we've been back from Maine), I hope. Again, it seems like this pregnancy is flying. I can't believe it's time for this already!
  • We are both getting very, very excited to meet this little person who is inside of me. It's beginning to dawn on both of us that it is a person and not just some vague concept of a baby. We love feeling my belly and being able to identify body parts. (Well, or at least try to identify them. Like, "That's a leg! Or maybe an arm!" and "That's its butt! Or maybe its head!")
And here is a belly shot. I took this last Friday, at 27 weeks. It's super blurry and is, once again, in the bathroom, so please excuse those two things.
27 weeks

Finally, C has tagged me for a meme! I'm sorry, C, that it's taken me a few days to get to it --I am woefully behind in my blog reading!

1) Where did you meet your husband? The general answer is that we met in high school. But, being the strange person I am, I actually think I remember the exact circumstances of the first time we met. It was in the auditorium at our high school during my sophomore and his freshman year. He was sitting next to my friend (well, our mutual friend, really) Adria. I was talking to her and he just happened to be there. He and I really got acquainted, though, after we were both on the newspaper staff the following two years.

2) What was the first thing you said to your husband? I don't remember exactly but I do remember one of our first conversations, in newspaper class my junior and his sophomore year. It was the last period of the day, and I had a car, and he tried to bum a ride off me since he HATED riding the school bus. He made some silly joke that it wasn't really out of my way becuase I was going to work which was near Walker Road and he just lived off Walker Road and his last name was Walker, and wasn't that funny, ha, ha, ha. (I didn't give him a ride. Heh. I was mean.)

3) Where was your first date? First real date was my senior prom. But before that, the first time we went out just the two of us, was about a month before prom. We went to the Haagen-Daaz in Beaverton Town Center and had ice cream. I had, like, one scoop of chocolate ice cream and he got a hand-packed pint of Jamocha Almond Fudge. He claimed he was getting such a big one because he wanted to take some home to his mom (HAHAHAHAHA) but now I really know that he probably went home and ate the rest of it while sitting in his room listening to AFI or something. First kiss? After prom. Big long story short, I had never been kissed and the whole newspaper staff knew it. They were all egging him on to kiss me that night, even though we technically went to prom as "just friends." (At least that was what I this day, Brett won't admit whether or not he really actually liked me and had an ulterior motive all along.) We went driving around after prom and we went to this overlook place that looks out on the whole Tualatin Valley. He kissed me while we were there. It was nice. :) The rest, clearly, is history.

4) Did you have a long or short courtship/engagement? The dating part was long, way too long. Four and a half years is a very long time to be together before getting married if you are not going to live together or sleep together. I do not recommend it! But we were actually only officially engaged for about 5 months, although I think we'd both known since very early on in our relationship that we were heading toward marriage.

5) Where did you get engaged? At Kerry Park in Seattle, sitting on the steps on the west side of the park, on Valentine's Day 2003. It was very sweet and a perfect day.

6) Where did you get married? In Oregon City, Oregon, in a ballroom called the Grand Oregon Lodge.

7) How did the reception go? I remember it being really fun, but being absolutely exhausted by the end. The DJ was great, and everyone was dancing, there was good wine, and there were tons of people there. I love looking at the photos of everyone dancing and seeing os many people we love from so many areas of our lives. The one part that wasn't fun was trying to leave the reception to head to our hotel. It was a nightmare -- it took over an hour to navigate through the crowds of people who suddenly HAD to talk to us before we left. The poor limo driver; he kept having to circle the block over and over and over again. (Seriously, we were exhausted and hadn't seen much of each other in a week, and had more important things on our minds [yes, exactly what you think might have been on the minds of a newly-married young couple about ready to go to the hotel on their wedding night] than making small talk with people. So a note to all you wedding-goers: just let the couple do two things -- 1. Eat their dinners in peace, and 2. Leave when they are ready to go.)

8) How was the honeymoon? So much fun. We went to the Oregon Coast for about 5 days, and stayed at the Sylvia Beach Hotel. I highly recommend it to anyone who loves books and the ocean. It was so nice just to relax and to be with each other after the craziness of the wedding planning. We have wanted to go back there ever since our wedding, but it hasn't worked out. And now, with the baby coming, it looks like it may be quite some time. Ah, well. Someday we will go back there!

And now, I tag Isabel and Marci.

Wednesday, October 03, 2007


To my dear first baby:

Today is the day you were due to make your entrance into the world. It's a bittersweet day for me: I am at once sad, thinking of you and what might have been, and at the same time joyful because your brother or sister is kicking away inside me. It's a strange mixture of things to feel.

I wonder who you were, who you would have been, if you would already be here with us or if we'd still be waiting impatiently for you to arrive. I wonder what (and who) you would have looked like. I feel in my heart that you are a girl, which seems strange to me because I have absolutely no intuition about what gender this second baby is. Maybe that's part of how I have unknowingly protected myself against the hurt I felt over losing you.

I know that you are in heaven with Jesus, and with all of our loved ones who have passed away. I like to think that your Great Granddad is threatening to "rock" you to sleep by going out in the yard and getting a big rock to do it with (all the while winking and joking around and generally making you laugh), and that your Great Grandma is giving you tasty things to eat and giving you big hugs. That your Great Grandpa Big Al is teaching you something interesting and taking you with him when he visits with all of his many friends. That your Great Grandma Pat is making you beach breakfast. That my mom's grandma, your Great Great Grandma, is giving you one of her bone-crushing hugs. That your Great Uncle Larry, and your cousin who was lost like you were, and your Great Uncles Glenn and Allan who died when they were babies, that all of these people, together with Jesus, are surrounding you and loving you as we would have if you were here with us.

I will always think of you on this day. In my mind and in my heart, it will be your day. I prefer it this way, to think of you on the day you might have been born and not the day we discovered you weren't going to live.

I can't remember who it was now (the time after we lost you is such a blur to me) but either Marci or Annie, I believe, told me of a vision they'd had of you, a beautiful blonde toddler, in Jesus' arms, waiting for me to arrive in heaven. When I arrived, you jumped out of Jesus' arms and ran to meet me and jumped into my arms.

That vision brings tears to my eyes, and I look forward with great anticipation to that day when I will get to hold you and to know you as I will get to hold and know your brother or sister in a few more months.

I'm not as sad as I think I could be today, mostly for two reasons: one, I know that I will get to know you in heaven, and two, that your brother or sister is on his or her way, and he or she could not have been if we had you. It is a weird thing to think, and sounds almost callous (I don't mean it in a callous way) but it's the truth, and it helps me to feel happier today than I could have otherwise.

I love you, and I will be thinking of you, especially today, and on this day every year.

Your Mom

Tuesday, October 02, 2007

fall is here! (and a bonus belly photo)

Oh, I love fall. So much!!

It has really snuck up on me this year. In years past, I've waited and waited for it to come, watched obsessively for the leaves to change, and rejoiced as temperatures dropped.

This year, I was surprised to wake up a few days ago and find that it was cold! And foggy! And that the leaves were beginning to drop! YAY!

We've had a series of storms through the area this week, and I love it. Saturday and Sunday brought extremely heavy rains. (Poor Brett had to ride his moped to/from work on Sunday; he came home looking like he'd taken a shower with all his clothes on. He was soaked to the skin!)

Today, it's windy, foggy, and rainy. The rain keeps hitting the window behind my desk, and the wind keeps blowing one of the lobby doors open. I woke up to the sound of the wind off the water hitting the house this morning. It was still dark when I got out of bed, and I looked out the window in the baby's room to our view of Phinney Ridge, Fremont, and Capitol Hill, and saw trees writhing in the darkness, the streets gleaming and wet in the light from the streetlamps. The windows of houses nearby glowed with warmth in the semi-darkness, such a contrast to the wild, dark, wet atmosphere outside.

I remember when we were in Maine, I would get so homesick for this kind of Seattle fall weather. I would recall a photo that was taken right around the time we moved to Maine. The photo was of me, sitting in the coffee shop around the corner from our house, hands cupping a latte, with the slick, wet, leaf-covered street behind me through the windows. That photo really captured the essence of what I love about this season, and I would look at it and get all teary, missing the rain and the leaves and the dim grey-ness of fall and winter and, of course, the coziness of being inside somewhere while the weather is so nasty.

I can enjoy fall so much more here, knowing that 6 or 7 months of miserable freezing temperatures, snow, and ice are not to follow. I'll take 6 months of rain, wind, and fog any day over snow!

And now, the bonus. I have been meaning to post a belly photo for a couple of weeks now. Here I am today, at 24w4d. I am definitely getting huge-ish. I don't think this photo does my belly justice, but it was the best photo of me overall in the bunch that I took so it's the one I'm posting. Brett keeps saying he'll take a good one of me (so I don't have to do it in a bathroom and all) but he hasn't yet so I just keep resorting to the mirror-self-portrait belly shots.

24 weeks, 4 days